Monday, May 9, 2016

Acquired Savantism

Before her accident Heather Thompson was a CEO and a nationally respected business strategist. She was married, and had a two-year-old daughter. Then, her SUV's hatch collapsed on her head, sending her to the ground in "eye-shattering pain."
Now Thompson lives in a rural town on an acre of land; no longer a strategist, and no longer married, she spends her days painting, looking after her now 7-year-old daughter and tending to a baby goat. What happened?
An article published in Nautilus, April 2016
What it's like being an Acquired Savant....

LOVE Wins

A man named Bear approached the window of Facing Homelessness. A constant stream of people arrived at the window before him with requests ranging from food to socks to water to boxer shorts.  Two women specifically requested sanitary pads along with hygiene kits after they were finished at the needle exchange next door.  Others simple stopped by to check in, sharing stories of pain, suffering and ultimately resilience - broken bones, drugs, terrifying police encounters, and blood soaked sleeping bag, all a reality of daily life for those living outside. 

But it was Bear that stuck with me.  He was covered in tattoos and his head was partially shaved, but his eyes were piercing. The skull rings on his fingers reminded me of Ozzy Ozborne, yet it felt shallow to draw such a comparison.   

Bear approached the window and asked for Rex, the founder of Facing Homelessness.  “I am getting my tools today,” he said.  “Rex and I are supposed to meet up.”  I could see the hope in his eyes.  Then I remembered seeing his face once before.  He had been profiled on the Facing Homelessness Facebook page as a carpenter in need of tools just a few weeks before:

needsTOOLS:
Please meet Stephen, you can also call him Bear, he won't mind, he's a friendly guy, Bear is his street name in the U-district, where he feels connected, loved by the beautiful street family there.

Bear is 38 years old, there's been lots of struggles in his life, like the devastating stabbing death of his 18 year old son January 1st of this year, it consumed him, they were close, it was his son that got him clean off heroin and meth, it's his son now too that he draws daily strength from.

Bear recently found labor work at Everything Under the Sun Construction, he was told if he was able to get carpentry tools, they would give him more responsibility and a raise, a bigBIG step towards long term employment.

To all of you who have an extra hammer in your garage, and extra carpenter's belt, speed square, tape measure, chalk-line, gloves, skill-saw, battery drill, goggles, or whatever is in good working shape, please consider donating them to our friend Bear.

Facing Homelessness is an organization rooted in LOVE.  With more than 30,000 people gathered around the Seattle page alone, people in NEED are able to ask for help…and those with the resources to GIVE have a means of contributing directly to the lives of others.  Within a week, the Facing Homelessness community responded with a BIG donation for Bear, as documented by this follow up post:

loveWINS:
Eleven days ago we asked all of you to help purchase tools for Bear, a few weeks before he'd found a $12 an hour labor job in construction, they told him if he gotTOOLS, there would be more responsibility and a pay raise too, a ticket to get off the streets.

A Black&Decker drill and a DeWalt impact drill were brought to our office, andAND, $460 was donated through PayPal. A friend took Bear to buy tools, added an extra $192, with the grand total of $652.00 spent!


Back at the Facing Homelessness Window, I was standing with Bear as he spoke about what the gift of tools meant to him personally.  Tears filled his eyes.  “Thank you,” Bear said. He grabbed his cup and took a long sip while his eyes turned a deep shade of red. “It’s been a long time since I’ve had a home. A very long time.” 

In that brief conversation with Bear, I felt shivers on my arms, and I realized that authentic connection is something ingrained in all of us. It is the awakening of a deep knowing that everyone and everything comes from a single source, like waves upon a deep and vast ocean.  The Facing Homelessness page concluded with the following:

Bear starts to tear up, he says, "Thank you, you guys gave me a chance to prove what I am worth, you saved my life, now I get to go to work every day, thank you all for taking a chance on me, for giving me the opportunity to get off the streets."

Bear then went on to talk about his dreams, for changing his life in this beautiful way, for honoring his son with a new dedication to living good, healthy, and strong and giving back to those in need.

After a long hug, I walked back to the office, tearing up the whole way, so happy for Bear, so veryVERY happy to be in this beautiful compassionate community that gives LOVE so freely.


Every experience at the Facing Homelessness window deepens my awareness that THIS is LOVE. It doesn’t come from me. It doesn’t come from another. It is a presence that becomes known in the moment. Some may call it the Holy Spirit. I simply know that it is always there, just yearning to be noticed like the air we breathe. Grace.


Friday, April 15, 2016

Skeleton Woman...A LOVE STORY

As told by Clarissa Pinkola Estes

She had done something of which her father disapproved, although no one any longer remembered what it was. But her father had dragged her to the cliffs and thrown her over and into the sea.

There, the fish ate her flesh away and plucked out her eyes. As she lay under the sea, her skeleton turned over and over in the currents.

One day a fisherman came fishing, well, in truth many came to this bay once. But this fisherman had drifted far from his home place and did not know that the local fisherman stayed away, saying this inlet was haunted. The fisherman’s hook drifted down through the water, and caught of all places, in the bones of Skeleton Woman’s rib cage.

The fisherman thought, “Oh, now I’ve really got a big one! Now I really have one!” In his mind he was thinking of how many people this great fish would feed, how long it would last, how long he might be free from the chore of hunting. And as he struggled with this great weight on the end of the hook, the sea was stirred to a thrashing froth, and his kayak bucked and shook, for she who was beneath struggled to disentangle herself. And the more she struggled, the more she tangled in the line. No matter what she did, she was inexorably dragged upward, tugged up by the bones of her own ribs.
The hunter had turned to scoop up his net, so he did not see her bald head rise above the waves, he did not see the little coral creatures glinting in the orbs of her skull, he did not see the crustaceans on her old ivory teeth.
When he turned back with his net, her entire body, such as it was, had come to the surface and was hanging from the tip of his kayak by her long front teeth.

“Agh!” cried the man, and his heart fell into his knees, his eyes hid in terror on the back of his head, and his ears blazed bright red. “Agh!” he screamed, and knocked her off the prow with his oar and began paddling like a demon toward shoreline. And not realizing she was tangled in his line, he was frightened all the more for she appeared to stand upon her toes while chasing him all the way to shore.

No matter which way he zigged his kayak, she stayed right behind, and her breath rolled over the water in clouds of steam, and her arms flailed out as though to snatch him down into the depths. “Agh!” he wailed as he ran aground. In one leap he was out of his kayak, clutching his fishing stick and running, and the coral white corpse of skeleton woman, still snagged in the fishing line, bumpety-bumped behind right after him. Over the rocks he ran, and she followed. Over the frozen tundra he ran, and she kept right up. Over the meat laid out to dry he ran, cracking it to pieces as his mukluks bore down.

Throughout it all she kept right up, in fact, she grabbed some of the frozen fish as she was dragged behind. This she began to eat, for she had not gorged in a long, long time. Finally, the man reached his snowhouse and dove right into the tunnel and on hands and knees scrabbled his way into the interior. Panting and sobbing he lay there in the dark, his heart a drum, a mighty drum. Safe at last, oh so safe, yes, safe thank the Gods, Raven, yes, thank Raven, yes, and all bountiful Sedna, safe… at…last. Imagine when he lit his whale oil lamp, there she – it – lay in a tumble upon his snow floor, one heel over her shoulder, one knee inside her rib cage, one foot over her elbow.

He could not say later what it was, perhaps the firelight softened her features, or the fact that he was a lonely man… but a feeling of some kindness came into his breathing, and slowly he reached out his grimy hands and using words softly like a mother to child, began to untangle her from the fishing line. “Oh, na, na, na.” First he untangled the toes, then the ankles. “Oh, na, na, na.” On and on he worked into the night, until dressing her in furs to keep her warm, Skeleton Woman’s bones were all in the order a human’s should be. He felt into his leather cuffs for his flint and used some of his hair to light a little more fire. He gazed at her from time to time as he oiled the precious wood of his fishing stick and rewound the gut line.

And she in the furs uttered not a word – she did not dare – lest this hunter take her out and throw her down to the rocks and break her bones to pieces utterly. The man became drowsy, slid under his sleeping skins, and soon was dreaming. And sometimes as humans sleep, you know, a tear escapes from the dreamer’s eye; we never know what sort of dream causes this, but we know it is either a dream of sadness or longing. And this is what happened to the man. Skeleton Woman saw the tear glisten in the firelight and she became suddenly soooo thirsty. She tinkled and clanked and crawled over to the sleeping man and put her mouth to his tear.

The single tear was like a river and she drank and drank and drank until her many-years-long thirst was slaked. While lying beside him, she reached inside the sleeping man and took out his heart, the mighty drum. She sat up and banged on both sides of it: Bom Bomm!…..Bom Bomm! As she drummed, she began to sing out “Flesh, flesh, flesh! Flesh, Flesh, Flesh!” And the more she sang, the more her body filled out with flesh. She sang for hair and good eyes and nice fat hands. She sang the divide between her legs, and breasts long enough to wrap for warmth, and all the things a woman needs. And when she was all done, she also sang the sleeping man’s clothes off and crept into his bed with him, skin against skin.

She returned the great drum, his heart, to his body, and that is how they awakened, wrapped one around the other, tangled from their night, in another way now, a good and lasting way. The people who cannot remember how she came to her first ill fortune say she and the fisherman went away and were consistently well fed by the creatures she had known in her life under water. The people say that it is true and that is all they know.

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

I still believe in LOVE.

I still believe in Love.  Even after all of the suffering, the pain, the broken moments and the times I have had to crawl out of the darkness again and again, I know that Love is ever present. It is constantly transforming, changing, scouring, cleansing, and urging me into a truer version of myself.  It may take the often expected form of contentment and joy, or it may manifest as a feeling of being held precariously above an abyss so great and incomprehensible that it can only be described as Mystery. Sometimes it feels like a soulful cry; a yearning; a sudden push of momentum; or a painful burning away of the cartilage surrounding old wounds from the past.  Love is not for the faint of heart. Love is courageous. It brings me into alignment along a path that is tumultuous, scoured with the sandy granules that the Divine uses to shape me into my Calling. This is Love.

Original Art by Heather Thompson, Blue Phoenix Art
Title: Transcendence
2012
Acrylic on Stretched Canvas
Contact for purchase information at www.bluephoenixart.com


Saturday, April 2, 2016

Ineffable Harmony - A meditation on John the Scott

Ineffable Harmony

A Neoplatonic tree
Rooted in ineffable harmony
From the branches
Soaring above the earth
To the gritty tendrils
Stretching into time gone by.
Scripture.

Darkness and light
Sing a chorus of color
In natural splendor
Ruled by the cycles
Of death birthed into life.

Creation as a mirror of the Creator.
Love absorbed through every fiber. 
Full knowledge never disclosed.
Unknowable
Yet observed
In
Biological cells
Rock formations
Simple flowers.

Beyond time
Yet noticeable
In
Every moment.
Giver of language
Yet outside the realm of words.

Where symbolism meets reason
And
Linear intersects multidimensionality
Lies the beginning…

A unity that requires
No differentiation,
No separation,
No lines,
No objects,
Not even Being itself…
Simply incomprensible wholeness

comprehended in every piece of creation.  

Art and Poetry by Heather Thompson, Blue Phoenix Art

The Climb - Meditation on St. Bonaventure through Poetry and Art



The Climb

Standing at the edge of
Mystery
An abyss of
Light
Filled with ineffable
Darkness.

Letting go of what was
Attempting to describe the
Indescribable
Through human language
Just as Mystery
Self-communicated
Through the observed.

Blinded by the mundane
Awareness of everyday
Miracles
Struggling to
Open perception
To incarnate beauty.

The corporeal world enters
Sensually
Through the vessel
Human.

Bodily senses mingle with intellect
Sight, odor, taste, light, texture, sound
Painting a portrait of this moment,
And the Universe enters woman.

As the realm of known and unknown
Weave together in delight
Grace descends upon the path
Iridescent grey…

Shades of black
And
Pearlescent white
Illuminate interiority
And gently nudge
Onward…
Through…
Into…
The goodness of
God.

 
Original art and poetry by Heather Thompson, Blue Phoenix Art

Bibliography
Bonaventure. (n.d.). The Mind's Road to God. Retrieved from The Catholic Treasury: www.catholictreasury.info