I did it! 3 visits means that tomorrow, for the first time in two years, I'm gonna get back on my big warhorse.
It's something that ive been fighting for... my Harvey literally has my heart beating in his chest. I need him. But he's not like other horses. You don't just get back on a horse like Harvey. Ive been close many times, only to crash. And today, I almost lost my chance. A mandatory orientation at my daughter's school did me in. Im sure none of the people there noticed that I was having a tough time, but my adrenal system struggled to made it through. Thanks to stress doses I did it! Then i came home and slept to recover. This is life with an #invisibledisability. Kiddo always comes first, even if it means waiting on Harvey.
But......As I sat here pulling myself back together (this is why I don't attend group activities... I'm not antisocial...I just can't do it!), I thought for a moment that I wasn't going to be able to ride tomorrow. It's all I wanted for my birthday. I prayed for God's will.... and slowly i could feel my body begin to rejuvenate. Yes, i can ride tomorrow!
We need something to keep us reaching. Harvey is my constant reminder that God is Grace. And tomorrow I get to feel his great power beneath me. Thanks be to God.